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Training round 3. Project Management training. Kind of boring, unless we work on MS Office. Mentos on the table.

Hooooray!!! I got SIFR to work again on the site. What font should I choose for my title & headings?

ive been messing around with tumblr (http://hazeldoydum.tumblr.com) and it seems like a pretty cool CMS. I like that its simple enough to skin (ahem WORDPRESS take NOTES), but it’s also not as scalable as Wordpress. It’s perfect for simple quotes and text, but as for building an entire website on it, it’s got some problems.

In the meantime, I’m going to be redoing my SIFR elements on my site, so we’ll see how far I go with that.

Moving is a drag.

i wish i was para sailing right now! or hang gliding! or painting! or cleaning my apartment! womp womp womp office boredom.

to want and want more than you have to want what youve had to want what you could have and will have to want what youll never have or only wish to have but may actually have to need what you think you need and want what you think you want but the thing you really need is something you have now. why want more? objects and signs and objects acting as signs dancing in your face. emotions tied to objects people tied to objects emotions tied to people people tied to people emotions leading to other emotions leading to thought. bad thoughts! good thoughts! always write 2 spaces after a period!

the leaves turned red when you killed me.

busy busy busy bee.

Your being is rooted in your body, and your body is not just something separate from Existence. It is a part of it. Your body is the whole universe. It is not something limited, finite. You may not have observed it, but try to observe where your body really ends - where! Do you think that your body ends where your skin ends? If the sun which is so far away just goes dead, instantly you will be dead here. If the sun rays stop coming, you will be no more here. Your body cannot exist without the sun being there so far away. The sun and you are somehow deeply related. The sun must be included in your body; otherwise you cannot exist. You are part of its rays. In the morning you see flowers open: their opening is really the rising of the sun. In the night they will close: their closing is the setting of the sun. they are just rays that spread out. You exist here because there, so far away, the sun exists. Your skin is not really your skin. Your skin goes on spreading; even the sun is included. You are breathing: you can breathe because the air is there, the atmosphere is there. Each moment you exhale and inhale the atmosphere in and out. If for a single moment there were no air, you would be dead. Your breath is your life. If your breathe is your life, then the whole atmosphere is part of you. You cannot exist without it. So where does your body really end? Where is the limit? There is no limit! The whole universe is involved in you, so your body is not just your body: it is your universe and you are grounded in it.

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its one thing to say you’re gonna let go
its another thing to do it
to loosen your grip
to let yourself fall

time goes by so slow
when you’re waiting for a rescue boat
the waters getting cold
and the ocean is not a home
when you’re feeling all alone
well its time to let you go
let you go

a poem i wrote on the ride back:

on the red porch,
a gathering of snow
and a puddle

heavy breaths and sleep;
footsteps on wooden panels
– a long silence

three hundred miles
of muted mid-state colors

think big changes. big changes. big thoughts, small actions. decisions. big arm movements. standing over a footbridge watching the creek trickle. walk alongside the stream. water moves around stones, carries pebbles, deposits, gathers. wears away stream bed. gathers in a pool, and sits and waits.

do not feel the need to define everything.